sodamnthing

i woke up in the night and i noticed my boy was not by my side. every day i cry myself to sleep, thinking why does this happen to me, why does every moment have to be so hard and now, hard to believe that it is over. i am awake but my world is half asleep. try to figure out what i do to make it go bad. i pray for this heart to be unbroken cause every since he left me, my whole life came crashing and also without him, i am going to be incomplete. i will never give myself to another the way i gave it to him. remember when he said that he would change, never let me down, i can not be complete without him.

i asked him to say but he would not listen. he left before had the chance to say. the words that would mend, the things that were broken. but now it is far too late, he is gone away.

when he went and left me, i did not know how to follow. it is like a shock that spun me around. i hate what he do to me. he does not ever recognize the ways he hurts me, does he? now my heart is dead, i feel so empty. it hurt when i think, it is all over me.

dearest, why do you do this to me now? why could not you just see through me? you act like this, like you just do not care at all. i never supposed you hurt me this way. please, try to look at me and really see my heart.

tell me, are you and me still together for everlasting?
tell me, you think we could last forever?
do you expect me to believe that i am gonna let us fall apart?

you broke me like i never there for you, i will be stronger person although that is impossible, although that is hurt and although that is make sorrow in my soul. i must believe although i can not.
there is no more anniversary.
there is no more sweet short message service that come every night.
there is no more your voice in my ears.
there is no more laugh, smile and jokes that you given to me.
there is no more i love you that i save in my folder.
there is no more love.
and there is no more you.

all the pain i kept inside you, even though i might not show but you must know, you will be the reason for my pain. i am so sick of tears, love songs and i am so sick of you baby :'(

i am starting to learn more and more about responsibility. i realized everything i do is affecting the people around me. so i want to take this time out to apologize for things i have done. you will know there is a good if you trust the good. everything will be alright and it will get better through whatever.

last words, you always be in my heart, i love you so deep :)